on how my cankles led me to the cross.`

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*These are just cute pictures of Owen helping Nick out at worship practice before church.  Reminds me to rejoice in the Lord!*

About mid week, it got really real in Mississippi.  While the temperature has been only moderately hot (85-90) the humidity has been substantial.  I mean, this is the swamp.  To get to the point, the humidity has caused my calves, ankles, and feet to become one giant rectangle.  I was coping okay with back fat.  The swelling of my hands and feet (and neck and face) stunk, but still, I felt okay.  Cankles were the death blow.  So then I thought “Well, in 3 weeks, I’ll have the baby and my cankles will be forever gone!”  Which was comforting for about 30 seconds, until I started thinking about how in the world I was going to manage two humans.  Would I fall asleep and Owen would free dive off of a chair?  Would I be so exhausted I would yell at everyone and strangle the cat?  Would I be able to keep up with my strict “vacuum every other day” policy?  I began to have a genuine freak out.  I’m sure most moms experience this, because although I “know” what I’m doing with regards to an infant, I know how hard it will be.  And I don’t want to screw anything up.  As I sat dwelling on me, me, me it struck me.  Jesus.

So, here are some verses I found, that helped alleviate my anxiety and finally got me to sleep shortly after 2 am.

The Lord makes firm the steps of the one who delights in him; though he may stumble he will not fall, for the Lord upholds him with his hand.  Psalm 37:23-24

Even when I do fail, the Lord will hold me up!

For am I now seeking the approval of man, or of God?  Or am I trying to please man?  If I were still trying to please man, I would not be a servant of Christ.  Galatians 1:10

Jesus won’t get all judge-y if I don’t vacuum and Owen is covered in dog hair.

Fear not for I am with you.  Be not dismayed for I am your God.  I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.  Isaiah 41:10

Cast all your anxiety on him, for he cares for you. 1 Peter 5:7

But truth be told, I’ll still be happy when I get ankles again.


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