*These are just cute pictures of Owen helping Nick out at worship practice before church. Reminds me to rejoice in the Lord!*
About mid week, it got really real in Mississippi. While the temperature has been only moderately hot (85-90) the humidity has been substantial. I mean, this is the swamp. To get to the point, the humidity has caused my calves, ankles, and feet to become one giant rectangle. I was coping okay with back fat. The swelling of my hands and feet (and neck and face) stunk, but still, I felt okay. Cankles were the death blow. So then I thought “Well, in 3 weeks, I’ll have the baby and my cankles will be forever gone!” Which was comforting for about 30 seconds, until I started thinking about how in the world I was going to manage two humans. Would I fall asleep and Owen would free dive off of a chair? Would I be so exhausted I would yell at everyone and strangle the cat? Would I be able to keep up with my strict “vacuum every other day” policy? I began to have a genuine freak out. I’m sure most moms experience this, because although I “know” what I’m doing with regards to an infant, I know how hard it will be. And I don’t want to screw anything up. As I sat dwelling on me, me, me it struck me. Jesus.
So, here are some verses I found, that helped alleviate my anxiety and finally got me to sleep shortly after 2 am.
The Lord makes firm the steps of the one who delights in him; though he may stumble he will not fall, for the Lord upholds him with his hand. Psalm 37:23-24
Even when I do fail, the Lord will hold me up!
For am I now seeking the approval of man, or of God? Or am I trying to please man? If I were still trying to please man, I would not be a servant of Christ. Galatians 1:10
Jesus won’t get all judge-y if I don’t vacuum and Owen is covered in dog hair.
Fear not for I am with you. Be not dismayed for I am your God. I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. Isaiah 41:10
Cast all your anxiety on him, for he cares for you. 1 Peter 5:7
But truth be told, I’ll still be happy when I get ankles again.